Those of you who know us know that we welcomed a sibling group of three into our home November 23, 2013. In addition to our 15 & 12 year old sons, we now have a 6 year old daughter, a 5 year old son, and a 4 year old daughter. We are not allowed to post their names or pictures until they are legally ours...that's driving me crazy!
Many have asked how things are going...well the title of this blog post should tell you. Our home is pretty chaotic right now. We expected that, although that doesn't make it any easier. I have already spent many nights in tears. I have wondered why God has called us to such a difficult task. I think part of the reason is that He knows we will lean on Him and not give up on these kids as others have in the past. I think this will easily be the hardest thing He has ever called me to. I also think the end result will be one of the most rewarding experiences of my life.
How are the kids adjusting? Our 15 & 12 year olds are starting to adjust, but it may be awhile before they fully feel like our little ones are their siblings...but I know God is able to bond our kids together beyond what I can imagine. Our little ones have some deeply ingrained behaviors that we are working on changing. We work a lot on listening, not whining, being careful with others belongings, telling the truth, sharing, and not all talking at once. It is frustrating, yes...but when you start to see some change it makes you more proud than you thought possible.
My goals for the future are that all my kids know they are loved by us and our merciful God. To show love. To show mercy and grace. To make my family feel safe. To produce happy and successful adults. To demonstrate kindness so that they will desire to do the same. To make sure my kids all know that they are worth every effort, every tear, every happy moment, and every minute that I give them.
I will not quit on them. God didn't give up on me when most people did...how could I not show the same faithfulness to my children? I am an image bearer of Christ! How I pray that when my kids look at me they see Jesus!
Blessings friends...have a Merry Christmas ☺
